sad/happy

working on my latest to do list. so far as I can see (which is not far because I'm kinda only getting categories in at the moment :) ) there's going to be house chores, shopping chores, money things, school details, and last, but not least, a million things of homework, reading, writing assignments. :-/ meh. stay tuned, I am very likely to come back and edit this post to include that list, and I'm sure you're just dying of suspenders.

ETA: Ok here it is.
To Do List

*** House
put away room things
Clean kitchen cabinets
laundry
put away books when they arrive
load software, office, mendley, workrave (the reason i've been putting things off is cuz i'm not sure i wanna stay with se7en)

*** Shopping
Post Office
Wegmans
Clothes - coat / rainshoes / show shoes
printer
chinese food


*** Homework
A) systems Modeling
-problem set

B) Chinese
-see syllabus
-first chapter essay
-library reading

C) Env Planning
- debate reading
- ! debate outline !
- debate searching

D) NGO
- readings, notes
- personal reading searches

E) Env Policy
- citation searches / annotations


*** Other school
clean up papers
figure out seminar activity schedule
do something so I can fit back into my suits
resume
four semester plan
fellowships/internships
thx for info interview

*** Friends

*** Journal

You know what? I have to straighten my room to my satisfaction. Once that is completely settled, the room cleaning, I can then sit down for a nice, detailed, what the heck I am up to with my first couple of weeks in school. But until the room is pristine and disinfected and completely in order, I'm not really inclined to sit at my desk and do that journaling. :-/
Things to talk about: School. Classes. Schedule. Life. House. Roomies. Weather. Travelling. Pics.


as for the title, the sad/happy is the being out here. i miss my friends. and you know how, sometimes you need a specific friend, for a specific reason, and you turn to them when you have a specific need or because you know they'll say the right thing you need to hear for that particular situation. and it might be that being out here makes them that much less accessible for me. so that's hard.


but I deal with it, as you do.

and sometimes other friends will step up to the plate and fill those gaps. i'm having fairly entertaining minor freakouts pretty much on a daily basis. last sunday i sent one out into the tubes and got a well needed, sensible shake and internet hug of words from my friend the grad student of the english language. I haven't asked if I can post it here, but I might, later. It was nice to feel the comfort that those words brought me.


it was nice to hear the confirmation and faith that my friend had in me. and I know you do too, but it was nice to hear it expressed so beautifully.